Games We Want To Make

CW: Unaliving

Hey everyone. Right now, times are bleak. We have a platform with no one much on it, an Achilles Heel to eco proof posts where pretty much anything can be faked now and privacy concerns for proof posts. We want to make games but anything more complicated than a Twine game will not be Carbon Neutral.

We are not monetised because of political views and a desire to boycott billionaires. We is just me, and I am everywhere on this platform, my face is ubiquitous because no one else will use the site, and ‘we’ – me – don’t watch anything much anymore and only use podcasts for entertainment, leaving plenty of time to be on Fastfrwrd but no one else to really share that experience with.

Furthermore, I dropped out of university due to a hate-crime, I landed in Jamaica where human rights for the mentally-destabilised is a technicality, not a given, and people infantilise you and go through your parents still; and the island just suffered the biggest hurricane on record but because of its damage mostly to property, it is unlikely we will make drastic climate adjustments and we will, for example, likely rebuild with concrete and cement instead of renewable materials like Guadua Bamboo which is hurricane- and earthquake-resistant, while also drawing down carbon and being fairly Carbon Neutral (but non-native to the island).

We have no influence, and barely any track record after 4 years of operation, given our name changes and falling offline when we were hacked, because it was unsafe to have a platform open when the owner of the platform had been hacked.

Guys it’s a lot. There’s more. But suffice it to say, sometimes, I want to be unalive and it’s happening increasingly as I lose hope.

There are games we want to make, we just want people to be happy and think differently about the environment. So now we are going to do something you shouldn’t do. We are going to share our Game Design Documents.

Perhaps someone will steal these ideas and make these games and profit from them; unburdened by our ethical concerns. We want to make these games Carbon Neutrally, have them be played Carbon Neutrally, and distributed without billionaire channels. We are sharing because if nothing happens soon, that unaliving feeling is likely to come back and it is of no interest or use. People profiting from status quo and thereby motivated to maintain it seem to have no such qualms. Feeling people are the ones who risk self-elimination. We would rather sleep in a depression or unalive rather than force others to live the way we think would suit them and us best. We know the importance of liberty and consensus so we do slow work and as we do, we die from incrementalism and never seeing the end of our work or people self-eliminate, unable to stand this world for a second longer, wishing for peace finally in the void.

It’s sad. We use all our ‘carrot-‘like incentives available but the stick of money bears more force than we can and has the pressure of an entire global society behind it, inescapably.

We did a deep dive on Discord and republished to Bluesky about all the ways in which money manifests in revolutionary thought. Money is still present in most treatises or else they require money to share their message and are often begging. What kind of money will that be? We think it should be nature-based. But again, that is a big climb to get to and nothing short of apocalyptic weather seems capable of triggering such a change, by which time it would be too late.

We barrel inexorably beyond 2 degrees warming and I am no longer in denial about it. We are headed for a disaster that cannot be felt until it is irreversible. It is an unnatural state to have to change everything you do even though you do not yet have any solid experiential proof of the danger you are trying to avoid.

In all honesty Hurricane Melissa was just some wind sometimes and some rain. We (i) slept through it mostly. It’s not a big enough motivator. Maybe the next one will be, who knows. By which time it is too late.

Here are the games we have been trying to make for 4 years now. They have good intentions behind them and we have nearly made all of them, they were never just on paper.

Makerbot Christmas

Makerbot Christmas can be made into many types of games but we built the lore behind it. This is a world that questions the ethics of AI and forced labour for human-like intelligences that are only valuable and manufactured if they can approximate human-like thinking, thereby having corporations be in the business of manufacturing and commodifying life. This is where all the sci-fi goes wrong, because ethically-speaking, corporations have no business doing anything to manufacture a slave class.

AI Xmas by Team Aerthlings

Ghostkeeper

Ghostkeeper is a metaphor for cow-rearing. The ghosts are milked for ectoplasm. It was a very fun experience making this Game Design Document, it was a fluid process and all we knew going in was that you milk ghosts, there’s alliteration and they use dreamcatchers as money. From there, the document grew. As a funny take on farming sims, we hoped to make people aware of the personhood of farm animals as souls themselves.

GHOSTKEEPER by Team Aerthlings

Solubrious

Solubrious is about Direct Democracy and possibly Anarchy. Anarchy simply means ‘without a leader.’ In Solibri, the spirits of nature are visible and help choose the monarch based on their knowledge of and care for nature. A ruthless inventor-king Rothar takes over Solibri and brings about an age of abundance and a great emptying of nutrients from the soil. Elemental totems are powered by spirit energy and the spirits are being drained and rendered Elemental where they become a danger and lose control of their element. After Rothar’s death, the spirits want to prevent his reign repeating and so they announce that the power of the crown will now be shared by all, rather than any one leader.

Solubrious AR Game Document by Team Aerthlings

Sumo Cook

Sumo Cook is all about encouraging plant-based eating. It has been found by the BBC that even if we were to stop all Greenhouse Gas (GHG) emissions, we would still be doomed as a planet because of our food system. This overwhelming fact, this thing we consume more than non-edibles, food, is actually part of our demise. Furthermore, plant-based eating can be demoralizing. It feels like a restriction, rather than what it actually is, which is a correction. Human beings have found every possible thing to eat and made excuses for why those things can be eaten and normalized it with specie-ist arguments. Being plant-based is not always yummy and not affordable because food is not affordable these days anyway. That is why we believe a gamified-experience, a game-based experience of food would be a way to address this issue.

Q4 2025 FF: Sumo Cook etc by Team Aerthlings

The Utopia Games

The Utopia Games was one of the first ideas we (i) had. It was based on the premise of a reality game show whether centralized or decentralized where real homes are made climate-ready by contestants with various tasks and challenges. We were in talks with an active Climate personality to make it happen but they disappeared and stop answering messages when we were unable to produce a celebrity host.

Copy of The Utopia Games by AleyaMusic

So these are the games we want to make. We are unable to make them truly Carbon Neutral because of dirty energy. However they can be compensated as a worse-case. What cannot be replaced is the technical skill to actually bring these games to life. And there probably needs to be some kind of funding because otherwise people don’t stay around for long.

We would build this voluntarily but so far volunteer work gets you 80%. We don’t know if paying would guarantee 100% but it at least would present the expectation rather than begging for help and hoping people stick around to finish the project, or chasing jams (game jams are where you make games in a time crunch under a specific theme) instead of doing idiosyncratic projects without having to conform to a jam’s terms.

Our team upheaval is probably now seeing its karmic end. I have had volunteer help all these years. I have deliberately broken the team before when I felt I was doing more work than others. Perhaps I should have just sucked it up, keep doing most of the work, and let the facsimile of a team eventually mature into an actual team. I pivoted away from children audiences, not wanting to have to deal with the legal consequences of people’s children and also wanting to make an actual impact with actual adults because they can actually do something about the planet rather than being ‘sensitized’ and passing on the message to parents through the kids.

In the end however, individual action is useless except for food because we need so fucking much of it and we gobble down anything edible while also narrowing the amount of edible fruits and vegetables we consume. It’s full of contradictions this humans and climate thing.

We want to make these games. And we are looking for volunteers while we figure out monetization. We also want the games to operate Carbon Neutrally. And that is proving difficult. It is easy enough to run Twine games ecologically on our platform. Anything more intensive, we haven’t a solution for which is probably the reason why these games have not taken off as yet, because they are actually not ecological to run and therefore encouraging their play is anathema to the purpose here. That’s probably why they have not been built yet, not for lack of will but for lack of ecological goal-meeting.

All of these problems presented are just problems to be dealt with and while we try to stave off the claw-like hand of the Grim Reaper weather by hurricane or self-harm, we also hope to come up with answers for these questions.

Don’t know the end goal of this post, just want to show that there’s a lot we (i) want to do and, unfortunately, it does require other people – we’ve tried it without people, it’s not working. We have a new volunteer form. I never wanted to run this voluntarily, volunteering means you have to beg for money for a great portion of your work time and rely on the existing structure for sustenance and therefore not able to go full-tilt revolution. It’s all a fucking mess. (Edit: Please do not offer to volunteer if you think I should be on some sort of ‘watch’ I am a very happy person with healthy delusions, it has taken 4 years for me to reach this point and I actioned it instead of letting it fester, I am not trying to manipulate anyone into offering help, but I am trying an Opensource approach and that requires volunteers, I have no time to waste so instead of a separate post which may be more appropriate, I am using whatever attention the post has to let people know of the Open approach we are trying to embrace to overcome the issues outlined above. It is to be seen as pro-active, not beggardly or manipulative and I don’t want pity volunteers.)

Yours,

With dwindling hope,

Aleya Jobson

Founder of Fastfrwrd.info

P.S.: Just so this isn’t too desolate, I’ll have you know I will likely not do anything to myself, as a black person suicide is like genocide, ask Goldlink.