Written by Hi! This is the summary of days 161 to Oct 10, 2025 where we discuss buying game assets, working with AI, compensating education which of course has a footprint, money as a wildcard, witnessing earth’s damage during travel, the kids are alright, and boycotting companies that support fascist creep.
CW: Unaliving
I’m Aleya, and I founded Fastfrwrd.info. I have been carrying out a Carbon Neutral Strike where I avoid oil, gas and plastic as much as I can. I have been posting daily updates since Earth Day, April 22, 2025 on this process as well as my musings about the world as it is now.
Day 161: 29.09.25
Working on the app with pre-existing assets. Just bought a bunch of stuff.
Day 162: 30.09.25
The app will be ready soon enough as an MVP. Lots to brainstorm. The challenge right now is to develop a truly impactful course of action and how to m(-kr-)/ake/ it fun.
I guess based on the typo I should include Makerbot Christmas… am I really gonna follow a typo?
Day 163: 01.10.25
Never ever has a company said: we will need less energy to expand. They will perpetually increase in consumption while they expand. However we need more perennial practices that flower and fruot regulary. By this I would mean that we we find and optimize practices that produce exponential value for minimal inputs and can be stood in one place and able to produce year upon year with the same resources.
I am trying to make the link here, let’s see how long it takes to find a coherent way of saying the above.
Day 164: 02.10.25
I have overspent on Unity assets and have no more money and it’s difficult to get refunds on digital products.
I have a Harvard course that I was gifted in exchange for participating in a study. I’m watching short videos. I’ll need to compensate them.
I also have a Udemy course on 2D game development and there is a Unity C# course on C# coding. I’m thinking of finally compensating my laptop usage and including the cost of these two courses so that I can actually build my game like I need to.
I have remembered that although im nearly out of money i do have a lot on my bus card and should be getting a grocery shopping voucher.
Money is q wildcard it is malleavle as hell abd cqn transform into anything. The ultimate wand. Mnay peoople hace them.
165: 03.10.25
I’m following tutorials, taking notes on my phone and I dunno if I’m learning but we’ll see.
The sound of thunder. The earth’s belly is rumbling.
Oh! Turns out Unsound (my song) is a climate song if I think about it. But my album ‘some kind of PARADI/S/E’ was about witnessing smog that caused me breathing problems in Lima. Suds and dirt in the waterfalls. Bogota is so grey. These are like centers (-k-)/o/f hollow threatening gorgeousness.
Dry grass that could set a whole mountainside on fire with a cigarette in Suesca.
While backpacking solo, learning Spanish, learning how to farm food. Learning how to build houses. Things we either are (-j-)/n/ot taugh/t/ or are not taught properly how to do so without causing smog in the air, dry grass, suds in waterfalls!
I made the album (-e-)/w/hile doi/n/g all /t/hat.
It was great. But sad. Beautiful places with centers of imme(-b-)/n/se pollution.
The river where I learned to build houses was not drinkable. It ha(-s-)/d/ been polluted.
I cannot deny Climate Chang(-r-)/e/ because those things do not exist without consequence and there was an immediate sense of wrongness upon witnessing it. You have to see it. That’s why I love travel. Beca(-y-)/u/se if you don’t see climate ch/a/nge you’ll see inequality. Either way… you’ll see someth(-h-)ing and provided yo(-h-)u have an affinity for learn(-j-)/i/ng it will open you up to new ways of thinking.
Planted four marijuana seeds in the backyard and marked them with recycled popsicle sticks 🙂 3 were old one was new. We’ll see… the soil could be too shallow… im thi(-j-)/n/king if so i can transplant them? I dunno we’ll see.
Day 166: 04.10.25
I wanna tell you a story to show the kids are alright.
I was once on a family visit to the coast and we were staying with a lovely lady who used to help us around the house and bring her grandson by.
One day she and my mom went out shopping and instructed the grandson not to ride on anyone’s bike while she was gone.
She left. The neighbourhood kids came out and were riding their bikes. They asked the grandson: Do you want to ride the bike?
I tensed wondering if I should remind him of his grandmother’s words or if I should let him live.
He said no. But then he grabbed a plastic bottle and stuck it between the back tire and the cover for the wheel.
Try it! He encouraged his friend.
And he zipped off and suddenly this kid bike sounded like a motorcycle! I was so very proud of him in that moment.
He had been restricted but he found a way to turn the situation around and play a different role and still have fun and be the most interesting person in the moment! He recycled… upcycled. And he wasn’t bitter.
It was amazing.
I think we should all be like that kid going forward as a means of staying on our ultimate path.
Not going to lie. Boycotting and carbon neutral striking and individual actioning is the restriction by the grandmother. But it’s up to us to use the small things to drive bigger things.
Use it as a lesson rather than an actual tool of dismantling.
Dismantling will come with stronger restrictions while we manoever toward a freer existence that coincides with its surroundings peacefully, gently, usefully.
It does not exist here… it has to be born into something gentler than this.
Final note: Unity has a Hierarchy centrally featured. It is not the game engine I need. Something central to it is anathema to my worldview. I have it in my mind to eventually have a different.
I just pictured a swarm of roaches errupting from my trash box. I have to stuff those bottles asap.
Day 167: 05.10.25
Slow going with the learning.
Day 168: 06.10.25
I asked around discord and didn’t get anywhere. A unity security issue forced me to use the latest editor which has AI. I used the AI (Unity AI is based on Azure OpenAI) and made a lot of swift progress.
I plan to compensate the usage and find a way to no longer need OpenAI.
Downloading music is more eco than streaming aftet the first play:
What’s better for the environment: Downloading songs or streaming them? You may be surprised.
Great. Just found out google gave a million to Drumpf’s campaign, cut their DEI programmes on top of already going back on climate promises they made by adopting AI and no longer being Carbon Neutral. The time spent learning something that an AI can programme is energy and water saved (I or my programmer would need watering for days). I forgave them the AI thing. But it seems I have to boycott Google.
The thing is these people who don’t give a shit about anything but their good time, they will use these tools. And basically they will get ahead. In their world. We have to make their world irrelevant. Divorceable.
This is my last Google Keep note I guess. I’ll shift over to Samsung Notes. I’ll have to keep my emails on GreenGeeks I guess.
Ecosia relies on Google. So maybe I’ll also have to be ignorant about things.
Just screamed it out. It’ll be fine.
And the updates stopped there because i use google keep notes to make notes and samsung notes requires me to sign up with an email which is also google. Got overwhelmed and just did not make any notes.
The days have been rainy but today is fine. Sunshiney. Happy birthday to me.
Day ???: 10.10.25: If Im going to be honest I am feeling quite suicidal because I don’t trust anyone not to waste my time. I hate everybody today. Because there are so many things that I have to boycott and it only helps the opposition to advance at my expense. I hate everything right now because there’s just something so deeply wrong with everything that keeps happening. All the good stuff that happen along the way dont mean as much when no longer having more than a handful of tools remains because everything big and unavoidable is being tinged with fascism. Those of us who think these things are compartmentalized, the Russian war is just in Russia… there is no peace while they are dying for the cause of the USSR. They have been fucking with everybody because we are not exempt.
Just games and war games and time wasting and an ever more uninhabitable future.