Written by October 17 2026
One of the three playlists accepted! Nice.
October 18 2026
I did some cleaning today which is like a big announcement coming from me. Wiped down the stairs and washed my laundry. Handwashed. We haven’t a washing machine in the city. The laundry’s been being done with a brush.
I don’t like cleaning. It’s exercise and during covid whenever I would clean, the main source of exercise aside from shopping trips, I would get these pulsing pains in my sides, like organs seizing. It would make me scared I was dying. As a smoker and a person taking medication that can mess up your kidneys, cleaning was always a scary activity for that pain during covid.
Aside from that, I am always hyper aware of the water usage and materials required to santize. You need so much water to clean things. Water we increasingly don’t have. It frightens me.
Not that I need an excuse not to clean. It’s work, repetitive, an exercise, used to cause pain, and involves a lot of waste. What is there to get me to do it? Instead, I would be disorganized but not dirty. I wash my hands obsessively almost, very clean about hands. I don’t let things get gross. But disorganized, sure. A bit dusty, sure.
When I had my Airbnb I loved having the cleaner over and the way the house felt after. I do like cleanliness. But I don’t like the process of getting there.
Probably I’ll invent a cleaning game for me and my family when I have one 🙂
October 19 2026
Today was a rest day with a bit of work for 2 and a half hours, updating the Fastfrwrd blog with the Carbon Neutral Strike update episodes and transcripts to bring in some traffic.
This work was tedious and repetitive and in that moment I saw the use of an A.I. assistant to get those things done. I required food and water to power that activity the same way an A.I. would require power and water. I wouldn’t be mad at the use in such a circumstance.
I’m gonna talk about food more because I am supposed to start cooking mostly market goods for a while in order to better observe the strike with local food supporting local farmers.
The countryside is greener. But it’s not safer for now if I’m the only one there. Just as a principle.
October 20 2026
Someone is in my LinkedIn messages inviting me to apply for a Canadian visa, stating based on my CV I might qualify.
This is what happens. Jamaicans abandon ship and go elsewhere. It happens that innocuously. Just someone insinuating that you probably wanna get out and go somewhere ‘better.’ Casually eroding the viability of the island. Not that anyone belongs to a nation. But the issues here are related to the fact that it is assumed we want to go elsewhere and leave what remains.
No offense but living in Canada seems like a cold nightmare to me. I prefer the heat and sweating profusely over the cold. And I guess the safety issue is just what happens when people are invited to leave the second they show promise of capability as upstanding citizens, they become citizens elsewhere.
Some choose to stay. But again, it’s the ease of the insinuation.
I wish there was less crime here. I wish I could walk around at night safely. I wish I was a little bit taller… etc.
October 21 2026
I’m dreaming of the countryside. Rainwater to drink, river water to bathe in, local farmers to buy from and growing own crops, cooking on found wood fires, taking the occasional bus to the town center, solar charging. The solar charger is for the countryside, I don’t have it to use in the city and it’s not MINE, it’s shared.
So I’m not striking properly in the city. I plan to buy up a bunch of trees to offset 2025 and 2026 and that will have me being true to the strike and settled, the next bit of money I get.
I need an artist. Artists are integral to game making. If I had an artist to cowork with I would learn how to code without complaint while they make the art. Working as a duo, I would be fine.
I used to study art and I have made some game art but honestly, it’s a time management thing. I’ve got good at art before and it required endless practice. I don’t think I have the time. Also just how much am I supposed to do, music, write, podcast interview, learn to code, learn to farm, cook for the cookbook AND become a proficient artist???
If I were someone else this would not be as challenging, there are places to easily find a team of people to work with.
In any case. I need an artist and I would like another coder. Someone senior. I am slowly taking on a course to learn some stuff, courses I bought years ago.
I would like to go to the countryside. Keep true to my strike. But we don’t have power for laptop sorted properly yet.
While in the city, I use pumped water, use a fridge, use a gas stove, plan to eat mostly market vegetables to cut down on packaging and miles my food travels, don’t go anywhere (not just due to the strike as have no money to afford going places anyway), have been avoiding Google so I only go straight to website links or search wikipedia for links to official websites. My surfing isn’t green because Ecosia is only made green through Google ads, not casually through browsing. So I mostly use green services or things related to the podcast which is compensated.
That’s the state of the strike. Again, once I get some money, I do intend on planting trees with a donation to Trees.org and I will have been carbon neutral so the strike integrity is still there it’s just based on a cop out. Countryside living will change all that.
October 22 2026
17:06
Small positive things are happening. I read an article about the legitimacy of the state and how the state acts as though it brings order when the order is already self imposed through human relationality and the state just coopts it and pretends there would be no order without it. The state also says there would be violence without it whereas violence still persists and merely gets categorized through the state and sorted. Some violence is legal, others not. But the violence remains so its purpose in imposing order and preventing violence are both failures.
Was a nice read.
17:14
I’m gonna talk about food a bit more for the next few updates. I ate fried tomatoes and rice twice today, had some fried plantain and bread, and peanut butter and raisin bread. I’m still hungry or at least peckish. We have a bunch of market stuff. I figure this keeps local farmers paid and has a low travel footprint.