Written by Carbon Neutral Strike Update February 18 2026
My name is Aleya Jobson and if you don’t know, now you know. So, I just spent the first night at my mother’s new house in the countryside. I’m currently on the way to scoop up some dirt and we’re gonna transplant some trees that I got her for Christmas and we’re gonna put it in a bigger pot so the land can be dealt with to be farmed and we can plant the trees in the ground.
It’s all the cool things, it’s all the cool things. It’s not mine so I’m along for the ride but we have been on this ride for a while guys and it’s a house so you know what I mean if you know what I mean. I slept very soundly. And it’s like a full place, it has all the basic things that you need. To be in such a position… and now I’m gonna scoop some dirt so.
[Proceeds to scoop dirt and sing “Scoop” by Lil Nas X and Doja Cat: “Scoop, I ain’t gonna lie, I really only want you for the night.”]
Oh! And I’m gonna be doing a podcast with an old friend. And I’m gonna ask him a couple questions, I believe, that’s my intention, that are gonna make me look a little not cool, a little gross, but also hopefully a very much, more than a little, human. I’m gonna see if it’s appropriate to broach the topic. So stay tuned for that.
[Uh, it wasn’t but I got an answer I had wondered about for a while!! Sings ‘Scoop’ again while shoveling dirt with half a paint can covered in its own dried paint into a reusable shopping bag made of synthetic materials.]
Oh I found a pipe. Uh oh. I found a pipe! Perhaps I should not be digging so much. Do pipes need to be buried to be safe?
Can they risk things by being exposed? I think sun would damage it.
Guys, I was an ideating machine yesterday… it wasn’t ideating really, it was summarization of years of contemplation but like, every question I had a ready answer of sorts, maybe not the full thing but I had an answer. And this is part of why I started to study philosophy in the first place. Ayn Rand confused me, and I was like, I think I need to learn how to have an opinion. And I think I also need to learn how to solve my problems. And now I’m thinking should I be sharing this or should I save for the podcast [later].
[I lose my train of thought and say how maybe my brain is doing it to save stuff for the podcast, haha]
Save the content. And that’s such a funny way to think of life, you’re trying to recount your life, trying to do a thing, oh content. But yeah, I went to study philosophy to get an opinion. And I had an opinion yesterday. And part of the reason I stopped studying philosophy was because I was like well, I’m learning all this shit about all these white people thinking about stuff, with the occasional Arab thrown in, and I am still feeling housing insecure. And the last time I was in this place with the cold and the Northerness, I was homeless. And, now, I’m at your school, I’m learning your things, doing the things, I’m walking the walk, talking the talk, to get to where you are because that’s what you say I should do, and I still feel housing insecure, so you still haven’t answered basic questions with your philosophy.
So part of the reason I’m gonna quit is because of that. And then the second time now at university, studying Gender and Diversity, [I realize this is the ‘content’ I would use for the podcast] I study that and it’s supposed to study how people of minority or otherwise marginalized identities, how they overcome adverisities, what laws they push, what kind of ways they protest, blah blah blah how they overcome, study that, and I still end up housing insecure. So what’s the point? I haven’t graduated because they still haven’t answered basic questions so I literally don’t feel they know enough for me to put myself through pain and endure an environment that triggers me, just for the sake of getting a paper from people who don’t know how to solve homelessness. Basic. I have a body, I have to put it somewhere. Where do I put it?
‘Oh, I don’t know but I can give you a Bachelor’s degree in Gender and Diversity, don’t you want that? D.E.I.!’
And it’s not their fault. But, I think maybe incrementalism is the fault.
[Sings ‘Scoop’ again ‘Scoop, I ain’t gonna lie, I really only want you for the night…’]
That’s ah… Can we interrogate stuff like that? Is it a malady or is it just a happenstance that people might want disposable sexuality, and kind of be like, ‘well, you’re not gonna really do it for me so, it’s just a one-night thing, is that ok?’ Um. I dunno. I don’t know.
That’s something to interrogate. Alright, I’ll stop recording now.