Written by January 11, 2026
So… I think I quit my job. I don’t have a fallback or new opportunity. All I have is Fastfrwrd and my music.
I will need a place to live and food to eat and stuff to smoke.
These all typically cost money and Fastfrwrd earns none.
Maybe my ‘band’ typo instead of ‘and’ means it’s time to assemble a band with portable electronics to begin performing at parks… walking in caravan through streets, camping in woods between towns, pedestrian roving band. You bring something instead of paying.There are small workshops available.
Where would this be? I don’t go to the US which is nearby. Europe is a walkable region, it’s currently cold there, not ideal for camping as yet.
So that leaves Jamaica so far which is not always loving my music, gay people like my music, probably cause they hear the gay in my voice as a semi bearded woman. Lol typo said ‘Work’ which could mean gay people just love undeniable culture where the music cannot be denied even if you have a row or quarrel with their sexuality. Objective factors. Minorities often like these. It is an equalizer.
So it seems typos are being perceived to tell that music is the next step. We can already do recorded jams and so forth. All this time spent recruiting game makers probably could have been spent building a band and choir/backup singers.
Not too late. A place like Couchsurfing would have been ideal for this. Place an ad, read people’s references, accept and recruit.
I have Fastfrwrd. So we need to be able to do stuff like that here.
I never used to give the AI my voice. Of course I had a lot of recorded material out so you could technically train with that. But now I have given AI my voice for a year. I am helping to build it. I did not want that. I explicitly said so before. The AI fuckers did get me. And I had been avoiding that.It does not make sense to be in a position where you are always sacrificing something, it can leave you hollow.
They did everything humanly possible at that workplace to make sure we were having fun. Even then it was not enough.
I don’t fully know what I’ll do next. Not healthy. I have been applying to jobs. But not enough in this job market. I need to apply to more.
Now that I know I can work outside of my house technically it opens up my job options. But relocating is in the way, my credentials aren’t enough to hire me in confidence and it is also clear from my work here that I want to run my own show. So I don’t know if anyone wants to hire me.
I do know that if I were given the challenge and I could, I would have to make Fastfrwrd work for me. Bring me opportunities. Bring me exchange.
I thought idly of doing Time Banking for marketplace goods. Perhaps Time Banked work exchange for my rent? Rent is not necessarily what I will have to do, I will have to ask about that… I may be able to move and not pay rent. Maybe.
In that case food would be the main cost aside from healthcare. I thought I could start Time Banking with farmers. Produce they would not be able to otherwise sell.
That’s an idea.
I don’t know. I just don’t want to give it my voice anymore. That’s a part of the reason I don’t go in.
Another reason is that feeling of watching the time, waiting for it to be yours again. That is wasteful. Of my life. It has been A YEAR.
That’s enough. I don’t know. I may not be fired.
The options are: seek out Capital with a financial plan or fundraising strategy.
Seek out a grant by making 100s of applications even though you fit maybe 50 (less).
Crowdfund by banking on social capital which we do not have.
Keeping everything insular and use Alternative Currency to the max. I got a Z typo, as though that would be boring. In such a case I think a typo is a typo (even though I just got it again ahha) because Time Banking would be an adventure to see what we can do with it.
But ok, insular may be boring because we want all sorts and we want to have reach and want to win at all the games and if money is a game, we should win it too and help restructure the rules.
I never wanted a team of volunteers. I wanted to provide stability and security by employing people. Couple ‘w’ typos.I have to work out a payment method however clunky (like adding your Venmo @ on your product page).
Just have to work out how I can get that payment.
While the money game is being played, I want to win it. Win everything. At least everything that can be alchemized.
I reached out to a couple local people. There is one entity in particular who I think we can make things happen with.
I think I have to go to places in person. So I will prioritize that probably even tomorrow. Visit a few places.
Got a message back from one of the local options. Still looking out for contact from the other bigger and more trusted brand.If people are making money, they need to be doing so eco. We can bow out of the money game when it’s done. It’s not done yet. I also want people to have the option to earn.I said years ago, I want to be Ms. Multiverse, not just Ms. Universe. Every sphere of interest is mine to conquer, every sphere of influence. When those two overlap, I am there. The Multiverse includes the Free, The Game, The Capital, The Draining of the Cyst of Humanity Through Varied Doctorial Practice. The cyst being our densely greenhoused atmosphere and what drives it. Our plastic particle lives. This is a communal sin. Its undoing would be a returning to ‘Eden.’
But with tech. I honestly think the world would be more fun and interesting the Solarpunk way. The future is not a long-documented cybersphere. Instead, it is possibility. There is a possibility that we can do multiple things at a time with each addition to the human sphere. Not only is it adjustable and custom, it comes from recycled materials, it was locally sourced, the people involved were paid fairly, the world got to see it because our online sphere still connects us… things like this… interesting to think about and aspire towards.
The payment portal is there to ensure we have insurance as we transition to that place of intrigue and pioneering in an unexpected and previously unimagined, or at least not fully sketched out, way.