Written by Hi! This is the summary of November to December 19, 2025 where we discuss boys at airports, shooting your shot, some people wanting things to be free or moneyless, airplane movies, being tired of working, new year meanings, and a post-publishing edit to correct a date and celebrate 1 year of Carbon Neutral Striking.
I’m Aleya, and I founded Fastfrwrd.info. I have been carrying out a Carbon Neutral Strike where I avoid oil, gas and plastic as much as I can. I have been posting daily updates since Earth Day, April 22, 2025 on this process as well as my musings about the world as it is now.
Nov 2 2025: I became homeless because of a video game.
I had been playing Age of Empires on the father of the kids my mother au paired for, his computer. We lived with him.There wasn’t enough space for me to play, so I just deleted something and it turned out to break the computer.
After that I came home from school one day and I had to go to the bathroom but I had forgotten my key.
Desperate, I tried to pick the lock with a hairpin but it got stuck and broke the lock.
I waited in the hall of the apartment building and the father came home, my mom came home, he had to call a locksmith and he exploded in anger, called me a dumb bitch and threw us out. I am sure there were other things I had done wrong to cause him to explode.
So. I think… this may be part of the obsession.
Who would have thunk it.
It’s good to reflect upon the self.
Nov 14 2025
I wanted to make a song during Hurricane Melissa. I woke up from my weed-deprived and nic(-l-)/o/tine withdrawing sleep and played a few tones in Ableton. It sounded ugly and I just wanted to sleep.
I reopened the laptop later and did not save t(-gr-)/he/ file. It was struggle music.
I have done st(-e-)/r/uggle music. It is not great coming from me com(-o-)/p/ared to what I can d(-i-)/o/.
I attach productivity (-yo-)/to/ s(-i-)/u/rvival.
I think the music is so very powerful. Sound. I(-y-)/t/ is ju(-dy-)/st/ like any othe(-f-)/r/ thing sometimes then other times it elevate(-dm-)/s/ the situ(-s-)ation.
Hey America, here’s a (-popu-)pro(-y-)/t/est cha(-t-)nt for you: “It’s US!”
Chat. Too much.
December 3, 2025: Tomorrow im gonna tell the people in my training class that they are sweet. I had an interesting day at wor(-l-)k. Super nice. Acceptance and emb(-a-)race.
One of my favourite days is when I borrowed a David Bowie Greate(-d-)st hit/s/ album from the LIBRARY. I listened and read his wiki while doing so. Everything aligned. I read about his life and the songs seemed to play with each era.
It was amazing. Music. Free things. Knowledge. Humanity. Lo(-g-)/v/e. And cosmos. Timing. Or perhaps an avidly generous editor. All. Amazing.
You shouldnprobably know: My medication makes it so I can stand the noise of the world. It becomes intolerable when I unplug. It is a signal. We don’t need all t(-j-)/h/is fuss(-m-). But be cauae we or doe want…. lost(-b-)whatever Im on ab(-i-)/o/ut.
Listening (-y-)/t/o St. Pe/p/per’s Lonely Hearts Club Band hoping it’s not an AI fake.
Talking /a/b(-a-)out ‘f(-i-)/u/n’ my ears perked up. Hm hm.
Dec 5, 2025
Ohmygididgid i am screaming! I posted my Bjork cober on January 23, 2015.
This after I had watched Dancer in the Dark on new Years of that year and since then Ive always been quiet serious abiut how(-b-)/ /I spend my New Year.
I keep saying that I missed out on Janua Decmber 23, 2023 12/23/2023 12/31/23!!!!! Haha. I eve(-r-)/n/ wrote about Cosmic Regret in The Stellar.
But I got my wish. I had wished on t(-e-)h/e/ Lunarpunk Lounge to feel safe at night. (-At-)and that nih(-h-)/g/t i (-g-)walked alone at night to ring i(-j-)/n/ the new(-w-) year. I FELT SAFE.
Jamai(-v-)/c/a is quite policed but it’s an emission we expend due to past insecurity under debt.
There are zones of non-operation or special zones that are militarized zones where army members pat(-ei-)/ro/l and maintain. O(-i-)/u/t is worriso(-n-)/m/e that we separate. Yes typo. One.
Dec 10, w2025
Guess whats free and an indicator of our cavalues. Emergency numbers are free.
That is who we are.
Remember who you are.
Rhey think its war. Si youre allowed to kill opponemts. You are allowed squash dec dissent because you are trying to prorectvyourself from replrisal just like gunmen warrrior ryoes.types.
Im already striking very hard. I dont know if you realize. Because I have more or less decided to onlu leave the island carbon neutrally. Truly so. I am striking very hard. It is not quite a no-go. But almost. I take it seriously even jf i try cheese sometimes. The cheese run my belly ;-; huuu.
Yiu have 6 months to get a verified adult badge beforr youre kicked. They gamcan only be done in person throiugh a game.The Tsellar was created witj 3’s and 11’s, 3 likely influenced by Tesla and 11’s by theaease of multiplication, it doesn’t intimifate me. I met someone at a Rainbow Gathering where we spoke and he showerd lol showed me numerology. From that. I got overm my childoghood fear of numbers and math which failed me after I had a historu of excellence academically.
You know what I hope sometimes? That there is a hidden world. A world that is just acting like this is what we accept. I understand work is neve lol typo inwas gonna sya necessary but him. Goodness Aleya and the typos.
Byt back to the stellar. The 3’s and 11’s are so nicely aligned. The moon… guys… has 33 year cycle. I need to look uo ehivh one but look how awesome that is.
Anothee rgame that was so fun and fluid to make is Sedition State Egology. Lol. The numberd just worked. But now we see the difficulty involbed in reading your tpos. Because i see numbered and see days numbered. Thats the first thing that come to mind. Do I believe that or do I understand that a typo cannot predit my future and so it wiukd be a fallacy to expect it to.
How much energy doee someone have to calculate multiple arguments at once due to malnutrition and conservative energy use… what if that is why they feel they have ro resort to polarized thinking.
I sometimes deel like im sawing odf my leg when i go to work or use the laptop to do the harvard course and expend energy brek my video embargo… for work as eell. They are not youtube at least.
As a young tweenager i said once at dinner to a friend-‘s family ‘if they sawy we evolved from an ape-like createre why dont they say a pig and a monkey had sex and made humans? I supposed i just had think lol this curiosity about the rules od evolution. I find that slightly proecocious for the age. Jusy meremembered it sfor some reason.
Some of the typos is just me racing to get to the word.
Dig dig dig. Mine mine mine. Both senses.
In ‘Replan’I say roll the dice. Apparently my name in Laton meanbdice. Not saying I jew that but could be added to the lore I am building about myself.
Create. Not inscessantly. But consistently when the urge strikes and you are able. If you consume less you may produce more. There may be an allocation of time limit. Remembering te compounding or concrentratin of effort to ensure yiur crations arr creationg mulriples. I love that typo.
Typos are something I’m studying. They also quite obviously act as a sort of anti-AI proof to show a human made it.
December 19, 2025
Hi guys. I’m doing something a bit risky right now. So, um, it’s past my bedtime, but I just felt chatty, I wanted to tell this story, and um, maybe, on some level it’s like I’m like, maybe [giggles] somebody will hear this?! [Rambles a bit] but um… I want the person to hear it! Um not for any obsessive reason but just because it would be a fun podcast episode, man. Alright, so I’m gonna tell you the story of me being rambunctious at airports. Okay? So, um, one story.
Coming into the island. I was in Brussels airport. And there was this guy.
I think he had shoulder length brown hair… oh my god… this sounds like I’m trying to seek them like a ‘Missed Connection’ and on some level I’m sure that’s part of the aim but I just think it would be a great conversation as a part of um… the continuation of my um, uh… intermingling exploits, let’s call it that, I don’t wanna call it dating necessarily.
Ok so yeah! Coming into the island. I was at Brussels airport and I think I was on the carousel and he was walking with his friends. And i saw this guy and i was just like: He is so handsome! And then I was like on the carousel and I’m not gonna walk while I’m on a carousel, pff, resting time. It’s free work. Um. Well not really, emissions. But yeah, I was just like, this guy is so handsome and I kept like looking at him. And then we got to the um the lounge area for waiting for the plane and I just like hovered nearby and sat down nearby, probably I distracted myself with a smoke cause nothing’s gonna keep me away from a smoke so even if I was like you know, looking into somebody, I still would have had a smoke break.
But, aside from that I was like in the neighbourhood. And then on the flight, I think I didnt do anything but I kept like looking every now and then. Trying not to be horrible about it but also trying to be like, ‘hey um maybe uh this will turn into an interaction’ and then finally at the end of the flight I got up the courage to ask his friends m: ‘is he single?’
And they were like: ‘yeah’
Uh, I’m pretty sure I really hope I asked if he was of age. [Laughs] like of suitable age. Late twenties. Um and then um… very late twenties. And um I think it was all clear and then what happened next, we went outside the airport, we went through all the baggage blah blah blah, and I was like outside of the ATM and waiting to go inside I think. And I saw him again and I said ‘hey, you are so attractive.’ And he was like ‘oh thanks’.
And then I was like: ‘oh i have to go to the ATM.’ I think that’s what happened.
And then I went into the ATM and it ate my caarddd! And so I lost it of course, and I didnt remember anything about no handsome nobody.
So, one other thing that’s not gonna be distracting me from anything [laughs] is um I guess, my monies and what’s goin on with it. So I guess I am materialistic after all. But we do live in a material world so, Madonna.
So thats one story. And the other one, I think I’ll try to tiptoe around this one a lot. Because um [laugh] this person um well no actually, that’s not the reason, it’s slightly related to the fact that there is a story in there amongst things that I have created that um… yes… i tried something there. I’ll just leave it at that.
But yeah, um so this next story, I’m gonna try to see how I can tip toe around it, i think I already told it even, um: Leaving from Jamaica at the airport, there was a guy, and we’re standing in line and at first I didnt think anything of it. But then I looked up and I was like ‘oh, he’s actually quite good-looking.’ And then we got seated next to each other on the plane! Amazingly [not that amazing in hindsight, they assign seats in order probably if you don’t choose a seat.] And I was just like: that was so lucky, I really wanted that to happen. And um we bonded over some books and had some conversation and then I was just like: ‘I’m gonna watch the airline movie now.’ For some reason! I was not gonna be .. i guess i didnt want to be too much or maybe I didnt feel so good in my body because i had the airport sweats, and i was feeling kinda musty, that kind of always reminds me of my musty beginnings or blah blah blah, whatever.
And um so I was just like not yeah i broke off the conversation and said: ‘im gonna watch some movies now.’ And then he went to sleep.
And um I was like, that was so stupid because you could have like, you could have talked and gotten to know him a bit better, you just kinda checked out there.’
But I felt probably that instinct that i get sometimes where I get skittish in those kinds of situations and i’m just like, oh, he doesnt really care about what im saying or i dunno, i dunno what happened… but i just kind of just, yeah… and like, i just get bored, honestly, [laughs] it’s not enough to look good, I want that like, first interaction or those first few interactions to like be um you know a lot of checkmarks. Just a lot of checkmarks at once.
So, sometimes these things just don’t work out and thats fine.
But yeah, I just wanted to talk about the fact that airports, I get quite forward. Or, um, quite happy coincidences. Yeah.
And yeah, I’m super into airplane movies. Super into airplane movies they’re always very portent. They’re very portent. So ill watch something and Im just like: dude, this like looks into the layers of society. And i always have a time on the airplane watching movies because i dont Pirate when im in germany because they can snatch ya for it. They can snatch you up for it.
So i dont pirate when im in germany so ill watch the movies that were all out – oh i dont pirate and i dont, also dont go to the theater cause i dont work outside And i do freelance work that is sometimes under the table or sometimes i cant work because its ah freelance work and Im on a student visa, and so i canr work outside as well, well, i couldnt for a while, and um, couldnt work outside, and so i did not have any disposable income to invest in whatever it was that i was talking about that i would normally be able to afford if I had money things. Um, i dont even remember.
Anyway. I thought the stories would last longer? Its still not that far past my bedtime so i can probably be a decent uh employee tomorrow? Guys i’ve been struggling. Ive been struggling with the work stuff. Like its… the work i do helps people, i know that for sure. And the way i do my work helps people as well. However. Its not enough for me to want to go out into the world everyday. Its not enough for me to want to expend energy and funds on a bus ride when i have plenty of work i could do from home.
When i was on Bluesky, i was between things at work, when i was on Bluesky, i was hyper-productive. I had all day long to work and work i did.
However productivity is not the measure but if we want to make it a unit of measure, when i am ready, when i need to do something, and people will wanna be ready to do something as well, its not just me. When im ready and i wanna do something, i expend the energy needed to get it done. However, It has to make sense.
So, in terms of the evidence we were presented in the form of a storm, here on the island, um this means that we have an awareness of the Immediacy of what can happen just because of whats already been in motion, not to mention the projections.
I… i dont wanna spend my time on much else than that. And i dont think i should have to. Ive asked around, in the communities, and some people would just really like to say: hey, money is not gonna be facilitating The life that we need to lead in order to recover from the blows we have dealt to our surroundings.
And the invisibility of the issue. In some, no! Its not invisible. No. The effects are visible. The causes are not. Its an invisibility cloak. The emissions are the perfect dagger. Because theyre invisible until they become a problem.
And its the same way our medicine works, not to get too wind up and chatty chatty. But our medicine comes in at the moment when It’s showing symptoms, rather than ahead of time when it enters the scene. You know, its this kind of last minute recovery instead of a building of immunity.
Cause i just had a talk about how bush medicine works. You have to build it up over time to maintain it. Which is very inconvenient for instant gratification time. But um yeah.
I wanted to… i wanted to talk about them boys. Because it was just about the idea of how like, Um, when i like someone,
I do come out of my shell, not to say necessarily that i have a shell. But i do definitely Take the steps to ensure its an option explored properly. Uh and i like that. Its interesting how different people will awake that in you. Where somebody, youll just see them and go, ‘i wanna talk to you’. Um… i think its really cute. I like that feeling a lot.
Um so yeah, i talked about those boys because of that, and i like talking about boys guys. Um. Yeah, so. That’s it for today, and i can still go to bed and try to wake up. Try to be a good worker. I was talking about being a good worker and not being motivated, i uh…
Yeah, uh, guess im not finished. I just remembered what i was trying to say, at first i forgot. Uh i see the work as um necessary, um but, i would want it at a 4-day work week, And i would um… and even then i probably wouldnt. I would want to just be able to clock in when i want and clock out when i dont wanna clock out, And have people fill in times that they want to work and just apply the knowledge theyve acquired of the product instead of um, you know, failing out cause they dont wanna deal with the rigour.
I… i… understand that there is this idea that we should have rigour, but yes, another point i was trying to touch on, some people talk about free. Alright. Or, moneyless. Not necessarily free but moneyless, In a sense.
Um so the time bank feature that we have installed, it already makes me feel hyperproductive to see my reflection of my value created in some form. When i see the timebank numbers jump and they jump in a way that is so much more satisfying than a carbon neutral strike 1 post a day, even though that was already satisfying, cause the points would creep up and take their little steps, bop, bop, bop, and then suddenly, youre at like double digits, high double digits, And youre like, oh how did i get there? Um, just one post a day.
But the time bank now, its actually so much more gratifying, ill happily look into ten more hours of work so that i can get a full chunky 30 points.
And seeing that, knowing that um i can do that on my own, i dont need to have anyones approval or necessarily input to make use of that banking system, and to get stuff from the marketplace when i want it, so the idea Of saying that carbon
Neutrality should be fun for individuals as well as Groups, this is a starting step.
I obviously am not gonna be advertising A happy place if i tell you about my life story and then you hear how im talking about things And you see that there is in fact a toll at times. So im not gonna boast that this is a utopia, i boast that this is a utopic-seeking place and seekers of utopia is The important part, ‘seekers’, not necessarily the utopia part because we all know that, you know, nothing is perfect, um however i think that a utopia is a place that plans for everybody including, you know, when things go wrong, how to intercept that and that is a part of the utopia as well.
I think there’ll always be distribution of um temperaments, and um yeah, you know there’ll always be some distribution.
But in any case, people talk about free, right? Or moneyless. And um with the timebank feature thats about as far as i wanna foray into moneyless aside from gamification, for now… just to see how that works.
So i would really like to get some company in on this to test out timebanking, um in a digital sphere. And how that might um, actually measure and um contrast. And um the thing is that if we can get by without complicated mechanisms of money and financing, then it is important to explore that because it means the cost is low in order to institute which is ideal for a global shift.
If we can make it without money, or at least FIAT, and definitely, definitely not crypto at this juncture, but yeah, if we can make it without those things it would be good.
However, all i want to do at this point is test on myself and i will talk to as many people as i want to about it, but um i think because it has some uh credible uh forebears in terms of people who have explored it, that its a known um phrase, time banking is the most comfortable i am with those kind of things so far and so im, i would be comfortable sharing that id like to try time banking with people. I am comfortable sharing that because its not just my idea.
So um i notice that i have a willingness to, not prosyletize, but invite study. Because then i can feel comfortable, im not trying to um, uproot anyone’s life to tell them how to get a good outcome thanks to my interaction with them. I am instead inviting them to say hey, do you think that this might be able to alleviate some costs of what you need to do to get by day-to-day? Do you think that this can serve some of your needs? Do you think this is something that you can try to see if you can subsidize your costs? And um, hopefully it doesnt shrink the income that you have but instead, because youre doing a digital thing… um… the currency doesnt circulate. Right? So if you spend on the marketplace, it doesnt then become a cash transaction to the person who’s selling the thing.
So the timebanking feature rewards the making of the thing, not the selling of the thing so far, but that’s not anything that’s too difficult to hack. But that would also require… hm. And now we arrive at it. That would require either programming assistance, or hiring my trusted developers who keep my plugins pristine and WordPress compliant for each update that comes. I dont know how they do it but ive had this plugin that they made For me for years and it is absolutely reliable and i have a preference for that step and method. So that is why we say ‘subsidize costs’ because i still have some things that i prefer to conduct with FIAT. So ill have to figure that part out.
I got some stuff that I’ll tell you about after christmas. But, i think i have some compensation taken care of! So, we’ll talk about it later.
Alright, Ive chatted enough, this is for all the people who missed out on the written stuff. If you dont read or if you dont see stuff, then yeah. Uh you missed out on those things but youre not missing out on this, and im sure that theres not much to miss.
Alright, buh-bye now, that was uh lets just say what date it was, it was December 19th. Okay i have to try to go to sleep now, go to the work that uh ia a distraction from my life but also a good way to spend the time that i would otherwise be idle but i wasnt idle those last few weeks of my being between things at job. Ah. ‘Between things at job?’ And um i wasnt idle i was very productive in terms of marketing And i gained traction very quickly. and it just, i know that the projection would have been that by now i would have had x amount so that does bother me, and thats part of why i have been sullen because im sacrificing things but then you have to remember its not a sacrifice its actually life saving and life affirming Choice to withdraw from platforms that do not serve. Even though Bluesky is perfectly nice it’s not carbon neutral. I thought i could start up an own instance or something but um, when i see these instances they dont seem very different from the original so its like whats the point? Why dont you make it individual? I thought that you could do that, I thought that was the whole point. So i would have made a gamified, hyoergamified Bluesky thingy but um, i dont wanna i already have the platform and the platform i understand it, mostly inside and out in terms of how it works, rather than just the code alone but I can understand and skim the code so im pretty much in a comfort zone which is healthy for the platform until we have a bigger team with a bigger brain. Alright, i think this should be it and it is… its still not That far past my bedtime. Alright. Awesome. Bye.
[Then I mention that I have been carbon neutral striking for 1 year since April 22, 2025 Earth Day and how I am now about 80% Carbon Neutral, excepting water usage, spices and salt that are from local companies but may have imported ingredients like garlic which I dont think grows well out in Jamaica and the transportation for my raw ingredients and the occaisional plastic. 1 year striking!! Woohoo! I have eco solar lights now in the countryside though so light at night is solar and lunarpunk! Woohoo!]