Written by Hi! This is the summary of December 21, 2025 to January 1, 2026 where we discuss taking my music off Pandora and other music streaming sites when I was younger, new years setting the tone for the year, virality, schizo-affective bipolar (lacking dopamine and serotonin), a raw Christmas spread, a year of a swollen lymph node, Drumpf pirates in the Caribbean and yummy gummy fruit spring rolls for Solarpunk group kitchens!
I’m Aleya, and I founded Fastfrwrd.info. I have been carrying out a Carbon Neutral Strike where I avoid oil, gas and plastic as much as I can. I have been posting daily updates since Earth Day, April 22, 2025 on this process as well as my musings about the world as it is now.
Dwcemver 21, 1025 lol 2025
I had my first proper record removed from Pandora and other platforms at the blossoming of my music carwer, after I ghad gpne viral after my visdeo post on January 23 or 123. My lucky nukbers.
I told Pandora I had the right to be forgotten agfter they said they don-‘t delete kusic.
What would hvae happened if I had not taken my kusic down? I would be able to use ky aetist name perhaps, Aleya, rather than the Aleya Jobson eebrand for searchabilitu.
Dec 22 2025
I seem to be working on the grimoire for The Stellar. I did not even realize I was sdoing that. The Chatpter is calld “The Method”.
If all these little coindcidesncs keep happening, the valid ones at least, they suggest something veryvbig, possibly sinister, possible benevolent butb clunky.
As it relates to me and fame, or the true goal: Visbile Platform oof, do not like that typo. Visible Platform. For sharing stotiesv on a grand scale. I have the impression that had I left my music up on Pandora, life would have been different.
If I would have given the speech I gave in my head all through the night, in 2023 .had I dont done it live on social media, it could have transformed the world. It had been that powerful. That is why I thouhght I should alrrady be famous. That speech was so transformative, I was xso certain of my words and myself and I did it all night.
If I had recordef it I would have gone viral. Not everything I would have said would have ben good bu t I know good content. It woukd hvae gone viral. I have gone viral pbefore. I know what it takes.Living in that realm wher e the benefits of fame would have assistend me, virality would have launched me and Ff. I mean. It was a weird realm to ingabit.
I have said before I sometimes believe my own stories. Because they are rooted in truth. Thats my thing. Tduth and such. So the stories I have written for this platform are quite real to me. Knowing where I should be and where I am and the impression of seand slidijg through the hourgalass. Time wasted because I wanted to explore the feeling of telepathy I was experienfeing.
I am diasgnosed scjozo-affective pbipolar now. I do not produce dopamine or seratonin. “Hearing voices” frok the inside of the diagnosis, is many things and youbare not sure which one when it starts. Perhaps youf brain is just trying sokething new. Perhaps you are imagining your friends because youre so lonely. Perhaps you are having intrusive thoughts based on interactions wiyh people and you akplify it because as a social creature with less rigjts than ofhers. You ikagije the world as it presents itself, in ultraviolent colour.
Andbok. About the violence. The one time I was violent was becayse I suspected they would give me a mediciation that would meake me die faster than others ij a heatwave. I was trying tobsave my life so yeah, Ill pfight 4 nurses, fuck you.
I still had sense. And what I was asking for was not that luxyry. Just tru to treat me witjout plastic being involved because it is literally in the clirs.cloursclouds. Ieverytime we use water we add kore platoc to ist. Every sinclgle time unless youve got copper pipes or sokething. I have a right to not wanr to hvae anything to do with platstix. Ok. There are reasons.
So no, sdont tie us down, you protect yiurself not you strap us down. Defensive rather than offensive care. Thouse nurses didnt know that and they made it hurt.
The vibrance of our brain life as ‘mentally ill’ individuals its just like how bees see rthe world vividly. We embaellish our surroundings ajd rract react to what WE are seeing, not just what is there ajd they are often related and based ij sokething true. I have been around people who hgae brain chiemistry disruotiona. They know their curr. And they gdt uoset when you take it away or substitue it only with pillls. Nbecause we know what pushed us over the evdge. And it was an actual thing that happenee that pushed unless i am overrationalizing diagnoses. But if you ask someone what ‘drove them mad’ or arather alterened their consciousness and awareness orf a shared reality… i dont like the word consciousness… con. Its just like a pet peevr when you dont have a good replacemrnt for a word that bothers yiu. Mind. Altered their mind. My end. Nowpe. Won’tbwork. Brain? Thinkpad, hm… it is spaed shaped* like a lilypad with the veins vbeijg the folds? Could be kinda cool, no? My thinkpad. Also my pad. Have to search what lily pads look like. Kinda, the underside too a bit like a slice of brain.
Edit: Not pad.
[Future Aleya: to summarize what i say on the recording, schizo-affective bipolar or schizophrenia is not a cool diagnosis as compared to other neurodiversities that people accept more like ADHD, Autism or even Bipolar. Instead you are vulnerable for having different warning systems than others. Your system warns you of dangers with extra-sensorial detail and yet someone can have you incarcerated in a mental institution against your will, even with a lie. I dont say this in the recording but having a different brain chemistry doesnt change the fact that some humans are kind, some humans can be mean, and if they have certain chemistry they will still be kind or mean with or without. It is a very vulnerable diagnosis to have.]
January 1, 2026 Holiday Recap
Happy 2025 past and 2026 future. This is Aleya from Fastfrwrd.info talking about my past holiday season and the raw Christmas spread I had basically. Um so yeah let’s go dive into the topic.
So one of the first things I wanted to do for the holiday season was to ensure that I picked out some of my favourite dishes from the past year but also give sort of like a gift of econess to the earth as well as a part of the celebration of the day by ensuring that I had the most minimal impact I could with the process of making the food itself, and even though these things you have imports, like the grapes that are pictured here the things is um I still chose what would mean I wouldn’t have to cook.
It wasn’t on purpose but I kind of did want to be kind of green that day and do a very green Christmas. So no cooking as much as possible. We did make some roots and tubers salad, so that’s gonna be an expansion in the Food MD (yes, self-promo) Food MD [laughs] Food MD cookbook, interactive cookbook that we have going. And this recipe is in there, so as I say here, it’s one of the featured recipes in Food MD interactive cookbook. So see more holiday cheer by scrolling to the next one, but yeah, that’s what I made, I made chia seed, grape salad. Uh, that’s one of the recipes for Christmas dinner, and it was quite nice.
“Yummy Gummy Fruit”… oh, sorry guys I’m having a puff. [Short pause] OK. “Yummy Gummy Fruit Spring Rolls” [laughs] So I’ll read it and then I’ll talk about it.
• RAW.
There is no cooking involved. Just chopping and
slicing, rolling and interacting with your food.
Can be done in groups for tactile fun.
• Vegan
As far as my research shows and the ingredients, the rice
paper is vegan. The lime juice can be fresh and you may
not need a sweetener for very sweet fruit.
• Contains local and modular ingredients
Tapioca for the rice paper is made of cassava and it might
be possible to get the starch and rice dust that restarants
wash off their rice as a by product to try to make local and
eco rice paper? And yeah fill with what you want.
It’s modular. So let’s talk about it. I made these for the first time with my friend Suma Puma who we have a recording, yes, plug, um ha, on the platform where we did a podcast episode together but it wasn’t on the podcast that we made with this but we made it possible and we made these Fruit Spring Rolls and we dipped them in lime juice and sugar. Right, and it’s so refreshing and Gummy and tactile pleasure and textual pleasure for your mouth, and then you have the fruits, you can make the fruits whatever you want, it’s very blank, it’s like bread so you can put so much into it in terms of the fruits choose. So you can just put whatever fruits you like in there. And it’s just very nice I think and I was just very pleased with that recipe and the day and the memory.
We sat beside the canal and we just spoke about stuff, including like um, my theories about Secret Royals and stuff like that where basically, I think the bastards of all the Royals are so,however taken care of in the modern day as a means of repairing the family bond and preserving the lineage. I think that there are secret Royals all around the world who are getting secret benefits and this is one of my… yes! This is a promo!
The Conspiracy Theories and Dinner Dialogue cookbook [now titled Wild Theories and Dinner] that’s interactive on the platform, another self promo and plug, [laughs] these recipes are for that. Food MD, check out the Conspiracy Theories and Dinner Dialogue section. And that’s where we talk about stuff like what I just mentioned where there are secret Royals. Stuff like that. All these little conspiracy theories that um might not even mean anything sinister, they just mean these are small things people don’t talk about but they’re happening in the world and they’re influential, made into a Conspiracy sounding thing. So anyway we spoke about all kinds of stuff beside the canal and it was just cute and nice and it reminded me of my youth cause I had been there when I was just a young adult, and um the first time that’s when we were friends with Suma Puma and um [laughs]
And um, now we revisited our past and um had a reflective moment as aging people. [Laughs] but yeah, I really have this idea guys, I want to do a thing where we try to see if we can make a little fast food, um, item out of this in like group kitchens and stuff like that, uh and, solarpunk type spaces, where we take the rice paper, make dumplings with fruit, chopped up fruit in there, and you can choose your fruit filling and you can have it made in front of you or you can um, have a pre-made one, that are on bamboo skewers.
And the bamboo skewers should be… well, I’m basing it on my location, I have all the local ingredients I think I might need? I think. The rice would not be local but we can take the rice by-products. It would the be local and eco and reusing what would otherwise be waste.
I’m really hoping theres some possibility in that idea. I think you’d have to apply a lot of heat to evaporate a lot of water, but if you could do it with a solar evaporator it might be interesting.
Anyway. Um. Making these dumplings, putting them on skewers and selling them, and I thought about for the sugar, instead of having sugar which requires a lot of boiling down and evaporation, if we’re gonna have the rice paper that requires a lot of boiling down and evaporation, you can’t excuse me twice. So I thought of creaming naseberry [a Jamaican fruit] and making it into a paste, and putting it into a piping bag, and piping little drawings with the naseberry paste, on the dumplings, for the sugar taste of top of the fruit and for the aesthetics.
So have them look like cute little, just cute adorable little dumplings with little pinches on the top, not Jamaican dumplings um like Asian dumplings type I realise that may be confusing to some people. And so yeah, have a on little bamboo skewers, we make the bamboo skewers by hand, have a little machine that you skewers the bamboo culm into and you have local made bamboo skewers and you can serve it raw, you don’t need to cook anything once the rice paper is made. And, guys is this an idea or what?
Little go-to solarpunk, group kitchen um, uh snack, that’s available? I think that would be very interesting. Yeah so that’s Yummy Gummy Fruit Spring Rolls. On to the next slide.
[Summary]
Couple more salads, I tossed everything together and had it with Italian dressing the next day and it was yummy.
Eco ingredients despite imports. Many ways to make recipes local. Can be an unseasonable treat. Very island way to spend the holidays, not sweating over a stove.
[Next slide]
So guys hope the holidays were fun, holiday spread decor was by my mom and I shared it, wheelsgr and the recipes are available in Food MD interactive cookbook. Here is a FAQ no one asked, am i faking liking salad? Genuinely not, it’s great for someone who liked some junk food. I like fat, I like grease. I pick out the fatty cut of pork to eat, Mayonnaise because I like grease. I Demand bouginess to have ketchup and mayo always with my fries but I’m also a basic b**** because i love mayo. Veganaise also gives me fat feeling.and same for fried tomatoes in oil, the tomato flavored oil jazzzes up the rice, I use the fat to remind me of the fat I like.
I didn’t used to be a snack person. I eat snacks now to save money and afford my self medicinal habits and everyday life. I eat snacks now, and I just say these things that’s part of the radical honesty I want to hold onto, like oh I can’t afford a proper diet because I am spending my money on weed. I spend my money on weed because it is a part of my daily practice, it is so integral to my creative process at this point for the purposes of my project. Im not gonna say it’s always healthy, i eat well when I do, I don’t eat enough. My lymph node is still swolen so I have to go to a doctor again.
So the food MD part is intentional but not accomplished on my part there’s a lot of room for growth. Gonna run it past a nutritionist. Kind of ending on a downer. New year.
I wanted to end on a more jolly note. The new year was very productive. Hyper focused and in flow state. Wonderful, how else would I want to start the year? And i also had a genuine belly laugh on dec 31st on lunch over a smoke… uh oh.. i shouldn’t say, oh realize i didnt say what kind of smoke, guys I’m radicaly honest i dont know how to lie. I had a genuine belly laugh. And I know the world is crazy, or wild, the world is wild. This year has been wild, this time has been wild because of people who don’t know the value of self reflection and asking for help rather than defending and becoming offensive. It’s just that simple. How do you deal with your problems, what are your problems. Do you think other people’s problems are their’s alone? Have you ever had to deal with the repercussions of your actions? Things like that. So now it’s more reflective, less of a downer.
But yes guys I do live in the Caribbean and what’s happening in Venezuela i thought it was unfortunate at firat but they can do it to others, Iike where I am. Sometimes i think about sailing away from Jamaica because, confessionally I have somewhat vowed to only leave the island carbon neutrally, truly so, so the idea is that someone rich gets me off the island, that’s the secret wish. Someone successful with Carbon Neutral transport, that’s the hidden dream. But in reality, i can’t sail away from here in any little boat which I something think about, hitchhiking, but think oh they blast ships out of the water. Like pirates. So then, I have to think, what… and I’m not scared actuaully. I used to be scared because it was the time to be scared. When it manifests, the rearing head, the red black and white in the story I told you, well i spoke about. It manifested in a different place, based on a feeling, the red, black and white. It manifested so it means it can be… I was gonna say it but i dont want to be incendiary. It can… it has become mortal by manifesting, so it has an expiration date. As do we.
Everything expires and then something else comes up so it’s gonna be an eternal thing, that’s what I’ve realized. When you see the back and forth between the two parties, it’s just a back and forth, even Jamaica too. It’s like a basketball league of only two players, skins versus shirts everYy day. It’s very boring.
This new year, I don’t think we really have the imagination yet. We have been thinking about these things in solar and lunarpunk. I think we are very pattern obsessed and we will see what we want to see to of the shared reality but it means the new world doesn’t get to be seen properly as it builds upon the gravity of the ground below us. And we haven’t yet begun to fly.
The story endings of To Hive and to Hold are utopic, and I gave a softer landing padding on the eco-capitalist outcome to have a little less doom and gloom. Pretty much any system can be dusted off. It’s just about first principles.
And I wish you well this new year, hope you did something portent on the new year, all the best and check out Fastfrwrd.info
*Some typos remain intentionally