Written by These are raw notes and quickly recorded due to time crunch, apologies, I am on day two of the Carbon Neutral Hunger Strike and apologize for the material provided as it is, plan to revise.
March 12, 2026
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I called around to find out how to go about making glacier for real [glacier is a THC, Nicotine powder with possible additions, like hormones, meds, whathaveyou. Trying to create a DIY guide to it as well as make it.]. I would have to have a cannabis license. Reasonable but I knew it was not affordable. I found out anyway and it is like $2000, $300 these types of USD prices. It is criminalizing those who cannot afford those US prices at a time where global south individuals are being criminalized as groups. They need to get their act together. This is so unrealistic and so disrespectful because you are making laws you cannot enforce for things that would happen anyway because we are free. The choice to do that is something we are free to do, want to do and should be able to do. The hypocrisy around it instead of integrating it.
The PNP (People’s National Party of Jamaica) got a half-measure pushed through for decriminalization and that is why no one votes. The opposing party can only push through half-measures. I am sure fellow North Americans can relate.
It is not like any other substances. It is its own thing. It is unacceptable to enforce criminality, as a feeling* with a plant that so affects your psyche and sense of self. It is really unfortunate. Just free up the thing, it doesn’t work as well and has ill-health effects under restriction. You have a smoke a day or so on average if you partake I am guessing if you average out all smokers. And then where does that come from? Oh! Mystery! No! Unknowns! It is diametrically opposed to the job of the plant which is to bring you to a flow state. A certain frequency. The path to it is affected by the surroundings. $2000 USD to someone who knows how to grow and wants to work, wants to make a living, knows they’re doing something positive. What is your deal? You are MAKING it negative. You are MAKING it negative. That is what criminalization or unrealistic barriers to entry do. Unrealistic and unkind barriers to entry.
Or forcing you to buckle to a bank and risk your property and do what? Possibly end up without a home.
Suck yuh madda.
*Due to feelings
April 2 carbon neutral strike!! Winning with hyperlocal food! Ackee and yam for dinner was awesomeee love ackeeee. Did you know yams can itch your skin?!?!!? Its like cooking poison ivy. Then you have to take the poison center from the ackee too, and use scotch bonnet pepper where the pepper is a slight defensive poison ish. Lol. Da meal yah dangerous XD
April 6, 2026 Love cooking on fire, hate starting it, hate the smoke. Need goggles and firestarters. Next up on the docket. But first, a compost pile! We have building bricks and I will take a few to make a big enclosure that hopefully rats will stay out of and add brush from the property! I am moving to the countryside!! Lots of super fun eco activities on the waaaayyy so excitinggg!!! And soon I will be building a house perhaps thanks to my year of servitude granting me access to NHT (National Housing Trust)! I mean I’m 35, home ownership at such an age is not unusual :/ it will be a bamboo house i believe with a studio and sleeping area and outdoor kitchen and bathroom and outdoor shower too…. think that is it. Need volunteer assistance perhaps.
April 7, 2026: So big news I guess, I believe in God now. So i had to deal with how to go forward with the project with that new reality. Not much has changed. I am not trying to throw a sex party tho anymore instead a Love Quest Party. Same idea, less fornication I guess. I just think it’s a big deal to have sex and it kinda feels better when you trust the person to be there after. So no sex party. I stopped smoking weed, it did what it was supposed to, let me complete my vision. I don’t need it anymore. But i can still trip-sit. Still sounds fun! I still work on the Stellar and the projects but I may have some differences in how I approach story-telling going forward, don’t know.
I also don’t know about the ‘hell’ thing. That part and Satan are bit more complicated. As is the Christianity thing. I really fought back on the transformation just because I did not want to be a Christian which is not very cool these days, peopled by bigots, has annoying music sometimes, and I believe damages your dating prospects.
I’m tired of taking HIV tests after a man decides to enter me without a condom without my say-so and I want to have children. I think if you don’t do anything sexual before commitment, you find a partner faster. You are supposed to have a partner or two, with or without sex. Life is made for companionship, that is how it originates in every case almost. Also I want to have kids, I’m not messing around with silly stuff, no messing around I want a husband.
So God yes. Christian maybe. Satan ??? I dunno. Sex party no, Love Quest Party, yes!
April 7, 2026 Continued: Had one can of kidbey beans left. Im back to raw while in the city because wood fires are smoky and may upset the landlords. So eating raw while Im here and gobbling up stuff prior to the big move to the countryside! I also have guava jam which i used as sweetener and limes instead of vinegar. Was trying to make like a big salsa and just eat that with stretchers like cucumber and carrots. I dont know how salsa is made and i dont quite like it anyway. Omg tho! You should have seen the big bags of produce on the street, ackee, mango, beans, soursop, jackfruit, pineapple, all stuff i lurveeee hehe. Was amazing. We are so blessed! And yet cursed as an island with crime. Adrift at sea. Abandoned, some of us with our passports taken away just because of drugs. If you cant read there are very few avenues to wealth outside of drugs. It’s our fault if they got left behind. Teachers love coddling the ones who are easy to teach. It’s less work. I’m sorry for the people who are just ‘stuck’ here.
April 7, 2026 Again Continued: Ok. Here is what Climatebase did that pissed me off. The forced me through scarcity tactics to pay for the fellowship community fee of 200 usd before having checked if the coul cover financial aid based on what said I could afford. I said I can only cover the mandatory fellowship community fee. I would hae foregone meals as usual to do it. Then after taking my money and asking me twice wha I could afford and my saying TWICE nothing more than the mandatory 200 that i would be hungry from, the still say oh we can only do 60% can you pay the rest. Dont rush me. Take the payment once the acceptance process is finalized. That and the selective entrepreneurial support that the decided not to offer me but offer other projects instead of just letting all entrepreneurs who qualify for the program battle it out and get through on merit and not another echelon of selection for who is eligible for funding. I was not overreacting. They rushed me into giving money and it wasnt even mine, ruined a special moment for me and cost me.
April 8, 2026: Stripe CEO is a billionaire with abiut 9.3B. Is Fygaro the answer? They charge a 14.99 usd subscription I believe which I literally cannot afford or count on.
Feel overwhelmed. Shopping is sad now. Until I move house I will have less and less tasty things to eat. Food talk again. Sorry. When I came up with the word ‘food fret’ my heart dropped. Less and less food based on today’s overconsumption, overuse, overindulgence.
Today’s work? Figuring out how to stream audio Carbon Neutrally without violating hosting contract or agreement or expectation.
Eating raw as said before, bought 3 lettuce, tomatoes, pineapple, seeds for planting(!!!!), and cucumber. Not looking forward. Wanted Italian seasoning but it’s imported and plastic. Wanted beans and corn. Cans. No use for them they are lined with plastic. Using as a planter would put plastics in the plants and damage photosynthesis. No use. I still have my trash from the start of the strike. They are a bit musty but can be used for an art project.
My neutrality score is up to 80% because I literally only use water pumped with dirty electricity through PVC microplastic pipes, my local produce and plants are driven, and sometimes they come with packaging (plastic). Otherwise however, I am eating local, and raw when I cannot make a fire from found wood on the ground. I walk most places unless there is an emergency in which case I take public transport. 80%.
April 12, 2026: I want a hot meal. I hate seeming so obsessed with food but I am not in the mood for salads. I figured out how to cook totally clean and I have to freaking eat salads until the 20th when I move to the countryside and can make fires whenever I want. I am hungry and I want to COOOOK. I don’t want to eat raw, I can’t use mayo or veganaise, the dressing isn’t as nice without something super fatty to make it feel like an indulgence rather than a ‘sacrifice’ for want of a better word so as not to pollute. I found a fun way to not pollute and now I have to go back on it. It’s annoying. All because it is unsafe to stay at the new house alone. I hate what crime has done to this island and how long it has stalled me.
Of course it is a technicality. Technically you just should take some precautions. Mostly you are ok. But I can’t stay in the house alone. We will soon have people there so it will be fine. I resent it. And I resent wondering if I should say it to the public. We need fi come outta da system yah, mi tiyad!! Sick and tired!! Everybody me talk to say how Jamaica nice but you have to keep your head down. Don’t talk to any and any body. Mind your business. I don’t like it.
And the prime minister, to keep the place safe, over polices and kills people, killing people at the same rate as the former murder rate so what has really changed? I do not want to live in a state that kills its own citizens rather than raising minimum wage to at LEAST $7USD equivalent per hour. At least. A state that has a plastic ban but still sells synthetic fibre reusable bags.
The politicians are not fulfilling their purpose because the system was never made for marginalized people, it was made to at most take marginalized people and have them assimilate and conform in order to be catered to by the law.
I have spoken at length for nearly a year now about the world I want to see and build.
Enough discussion. Time for action. Climate Action. System change. People power. Healing. And transition.
April 21, 2026: Got some hyperlocal callaloo and pak choi. Super excited that I live near farmers. Also i found my kale plants start growing after planting without any need for watering. The rain takes care of it. And kale is perennial (iirc) so planting up a bunch seems to be the next task at hand! But the soil is lacking! That said, a pumpkin seed in my compost sprouted hehe. And been building the compost little by little but don’t really know when i should turn it and stuff, really just winging it. If anyone has compost instructions they can sell on the marketplace, please do so, le sigh.
About Solarpunk and Ecologists relying on People Power: The thing is, people are not born into social groups anymore, it is very easy to isolate and thrive under capitalism, it is helpful to have individual consumers rather tha social sharers. What that means however is people are not tooled for community and don’t need it. These people-powered movements are succeptible if the people aren’t trustworthy or wanting to pitch in.
April 24, 2026: Today’s meal was made on a struggle fire with the last match I plan to use. The match caught the kindling and that fire grew and grew strong. So proud and happy. But. It is shortlived. I need a magnifying glass or an electric lighter and I need to get them carbon neutrally, truly so, not the buy-your-way-out cop-out. That’s the challenge! Cooking ecologically! Eco stove also acceptable! How will we make this happen??