Written by July 3, 2026
Hey all,
Aleya checking in to say we have some new material on the way but just wanted to give a quick Patreon update on the plants from 4/20/2026 or, for us sensible Commonwealth and non-U.S. people, 20/04/2026. Well I haven’t been in the countryside to tend to the plants from that day and did not know what became of them and felt sad about the symbolism lost!
However, there is what seems to be a stray weed growing strong in the soil… or can someone identify this seedling?
In any case it is perfectly apt that a weed takes root from that day and I plan to nurture and care for this plant for sure, perhaps even with a skill-sharpening Growth Song that I will make up for this plant especially so she grows happy and strong no matter what she is! Woohoo! Something survived which is way more than expected!
This however shows the perils involved in witchy stuff, if it doesn’t go as hoped all superstitions follow and indicate failure! What would it have meant if nothing at all grew from ‘Sowing the seeds of love?’ Would that have meant hate won? Isn’t that a terrible thing to risk on the fate of a plant?! Too much pressure! I might be doing this wrong XD
Haha in any case that did not happen. Instead we have a plant in a drying coconut shell and I think this weekend I will find a cosy place to plant the seedling in soil and let it live a wild and happy life.
If it turns out to be basil… I will visit occasionally to see if basil is on the way. Otherwise I’ll plant her and sing her her song and share the recording if anything and that’ll be that in the saga of the Seeds
of Loooove.
July 6th, 2026
Back from the countryside and i forgot to sing to my plant from The Stellar 4/20 Pollination Campaign like i wanted to!
I finished my protopia prize entry and im uncertain about fitting one of the rules but otherwise happy. I dont like writing work FOR a competition and I’m also uncomfortable not having a full say over how my work is shared. But I’ll whore for 5k.
July 7 2026
I totally forgot to capture the mood of how I felt yesterday when my patchy cellphone signal stopped me participating in a radio interview with Ariel and Christina. I was really sad because all i had to do was use Elon Musk’s wifi and i would be online and on the radio. But instead i just had to sit there and watch the opportunity go by.
The same is happening with my love life. I dont really go out, no job no money. And i dont go on the apps cause they’re not eco. I try to use Fastfrwrd because it is but maybe some people arent comfortable being members of the site and the admin is trying to get a date… i kinda don’t care, I’m not going barren for this and it would be nice to get a Fastfrwrd love story.
I am workshopping a dating game in fact that I hope will work for me and others. I find it scandalous that there are no green online dating options, I have explored and the green singles stuff don’t have eco hosting. I spent half a year going out and trying to date after my workplace crushes didn’t work out. At my cafe I would be my best self and I had a couple crushes that amounted to nothing and no one ever even hit on me from June to October. People don’t date outside of apps these days. Wasted time. I also wasted time before that in Germany trying the slow build thing for once and nothing came out of it. I tried going through guys rapidly before heading back to Jamaica, trying to get a husband quickly and then come to the island to make a life and live half the year on the island and half overseas, the life I want. That didn’t work.
I really wish I were more into girls. I don’t think it would be easier but perhaps I would at least have friendships out of it after.
Guys and guy friendships are lonely after you move or whatever.
Anyway. I just wonder what else I’m sacrificing sometimes and how to avoid that. We may end up doing another radio interview so there’s hope for that.
That’s today’s thoughts.
July 7, 2026 second update, I’m working on a beat and it’s pretty dope. Nice instruments sounds nice beat, it’s it’s sounding like something.
Guys I’m very happy with this song. It’s fun, it’s a good time, it took some mas, well I hate that word master, it took some time to acclimate to the cadences and every little nuance that I put in which might be a sign that it’s not poppy enough where you have, poppy stuff is catchy and easy to get. If you add difference, but I did say I was going for the pop of a David Bowie and Queen and they’re more complicated. They do complicate but they are still accessible so that’s what I’m hoping I did as well. It’s pretty accessible. So yeah. I’m pretty happy with it I keep on enjoying so that is a good good sign.
It’s called Popopopp. It’s call pop. Popopopopop. And I am, oof yeah, I’ll say this I am nervous it is slightly political. And it is making reference to a certain figure who is very big in the political arena right now and it might be indelicate because the name has a double entendre and so I’m a little bit nervous about that just because I don’t want to make fun of somebody for something like that, somebody who has had their life threatened but at the same time the song title came before I made the realization of what it could mean which is what I told you guys, I have these double entendres that happen by accident. I’m sorry I don’t mean it that way but it does have that meaning and it’s not fully without reason. So shots fired I guess [laugh] sorry, so sorry it’s not funny, it’s not funny at all. It’s horrible, violence is horrible but yeah that’s how the song came out. Alrighty.
I am having the hardest time with track because i have to do a full proper take, I have done vocals takes but because I’m not using headphones, i don’t have anymore headphones, I have to lower the volume of track so it doesn’t affect the vocal track because it’s too much mid tones if I have the track from the thing playing too loud while I’m recording the vocal takes so I have to redo my vocal takes and it’s getting late and it’s getting tiresome. [Laughs] Also the vocals are recorded on my phone people.
So July 8 4:02 am I started, I was supposed to record this 4 o clock on the dot but I had to render a loop for the music under the vocals that you’re hearing right now. SO yeah, I made three different tracks with the same instruments and the final track turned into a song, 3 my lucky number. We will see if it will become a pop hit and dominate the charts, but at the same time it’s a bit, it’s got an undercurrent to it that is a bit inappropriate so I don’t know if I should really do it but I think the name is the name. That’s the name that I came up with, I didn’t mean it any kind of way, it just happens to mean [laughs] it just happens to have [that meaning to it] I’m laughing but it’s not that funny for the person on the receiving end but yo. I don’t wanna change the name it’s my name, it’s my Pop song so it’s called ‘Popopop.’ It’s not my fault somebody else is getting popped at. Is it my fault? I don’t think so. Hm. Yeah. Yeah guys so yeah, made a song. Happy, happy, July 8th, Carbon Neutral strike I used lights while i was making it during the night. I’ve been touching light switches. I’ve been touching light switches guys. This excuse of the medication I am taking is turning into something really astonishing but of course there’s always the fallback of planting trees. So [[laughs[ when I big I’ll just plant some trees to compensate this.
And here’s a preview of the song. [Song plays.]
Lyrics:
Pop pop pop
When the penny drop
Seeing that plastic kingdom melt
Wap wap wap
See a panty drop
Hoping it’ll be like the first you felt
You think you know it all
You think you know it all like you can rule the world
I think I’m over i think I’m over being a human being
Tap tap tap
Though your fingers fat
Spewing like a sewage pipe in the sea
Chat chat chat
Though its getting hot you don’t have the time or the eyes to see
You think you know it all
You think you know it all like you can rule the world
I think I’m over I think I’m over being a human being
Sunlight
Moonlight
Good life
Ooh
So bright
Insight
Wont bite
Ooh
Left/right
Hold tight
This height
Ooh
Ooh
Oh oh ooh
Clap clap clap
In the finger trap
As you try to pull out you get more stuck
This mishap
Was a dirty slap
In the face of all those who give a huuush!
You think you know it all
You like the sound of your boorish and droning voice
I think I’m over, I think I’m over being a human being
All i know
Is there’s ways to go
Forth gotta hold tight to hope and love
Calm and slow
Like a turtle dove
Low lifes below us and we’re above
They think they know it all
I just go in withdrawal cause they cannot rule the world
I think I’m over, i think I’m over being a human being
Sunlight
Moonlight
Good life
Ooh
So bright
Insight
Wont bite
Ooh
Left/right
Hold tight
This height
Ooh
Ooh
Oh oh ooh
Moving along
Moving along
With our building song
Along
Moving along
Moving along
With our building song
Along!
I have two missions
Two things left to teach
I have envisioned
To practice not preach
I turn the lights off and find in myself
All that i need for my future my health
I stand triumphant and i lead the way
I do not listen to what the drones say
Moving along as i forge my own path
Side by side forces
No bad aftermath
July 9 2026
I am going to have to write another stpry for the Protopia Prize because they want realism and the story I wrote has very sci fi tech that is not based in realism.
At first I was annoyed but now I realise it means that i can write something that can come true. The ideas of a realistic story can be pursued forthwith. It’s doable.
So now my mind is whirring with possibility of all the amazing things I would want to happen. I can stuff it all in and be like the biggest Make A Wish kid. So I am thinking a lot.
I wish I had something else to do because this is work, thinking of a realistic way out of the system. But it’s getting to be less frustrating and more interesting as small questions are answered, small ideas add themselves to the growing plot points and world elements. It gets easier and easier when the pillar ideas establish themselves.
I do realise however that I haven’t any expertise in either AI nor democratic systems. So it is maybe foolhardy to try to compete. But I also have the ability to put forth what WOULD interest me about these things to become an expert and that would be the protopian view.
We shall see.
9:48a.m. I am not having an easy time making something as compelling as what I had. I wtote down some details, I tried starting to write, and it’s not as interesting as what I had before.
The ideas are aspirational though but I’m not as intrigued as yet. Currently i guess i only have a setting, not so much a story.
10:09am I am thinking of a way for this story to fit into everything else. All my stories take place in a multiverse, that way I stay building the Fastfrwrd project, everything works towards that good. It is working slowly but I may have something.
10:40am So I crossed out what I wrote and started again. The thing is if I l8nk the story to the others the way Im thinking the plot gets spoiled by the one I have publishing authority over and would be put out before the others thereby spoiling an aspect of that story line. I’m not sure how to go about this.
1:42 pm I am stuck in the plot for how to trigger the disagreement that creates the tension in the story. I have some idea of how it ends. But gettibg a good example of what happens to tje character to cause trouble is a huge stumbling block at the moment. I may have something but Im not sure.
2:48 pm I think I figured stuff out, Im just writing now, writing and rereading and writing. Because I wrote three different starts to the story its starting to blur which part was already explain and where wasnt. We will see!
3:59 pm I’m making good progress. I have an idea of how this will end but not sure how to make it happen. Also not sure if it’s as good as the other story or if it’s winning writing.
7:40 pm I finished. I ended up going over the word limit by 300 words or so and had to dial it back. Lol, short stories are not my genre, Im more of a novella girl, 20k word limit, thats my ghostwriter training.
But I hope listening to my struggle shows that with creativity you just have to do the thing. You just have to go through the doubts and the worries and the plot worries and just do it 🙂
Hopefully it’s good enough for 5000 buckaroos!
July 10, 2026
Currently using the light at night and I seem to be deciding that i will indeed spin a wheel to see if i will be using no lights, eating raw or walking everywhere for each weekly challenge.
I sent in a story to Solarpunk Magazine today and I will be sending in my Protopian Prize soon enough.
It’s sad to know how much one needs community to get anything done and to feel happy. I downloaded Newpipe from the playstore to see if watching things would make me feel better. I still searched for ways to socialize instead while the videos played. Needing people is the Achilles Heel of our movement as well as our coating of armour. Needing people means a sabateur can enter the fray, sow distrust and render those who want to pitch in and work for a better future instead scatter, no longer able to socialize and organize in comfort.
I have a song that I shared in one of my ‘Unfinished Tracks’ vlogs that I now have lyrics for that touch upon the crossed wires one has when the source of a big shakeup in your life is also the source of some of your fonder memories and the last place you were fully yourself and joyful. I almost approached that feeling again at the neighbourhood cafe but not quite.
Missing it. Well. That’s what the song is about. Seems to have taken years to mature into significance. We’ll see if I do it justice.
July 11, 2026
I still haven’t checked my neck with an ultrasound to see if i have cancer or not. I don’t know how many eggs i have left and every month i just have to hope i still menstruate. I hate that this is my life and I’m here trying to sing to see if i can change my life with a song.
I hate this world. It sucks. I and many people want out. Why is it taking this long? Is it because there’s no agreement on the replacement world?
Is it because we are not sure how we can afford it? What’s the hold up? There are REAL REPERCUSSIONS for dragging our feet on Solarpunk transformation. It is affecting people here and now to say “oh i’ll just garden and do what i can and be solarpunk in my own way”. It’s costing lives and happiness.
Isn’t it a moral obligation to improve a process that causes unhappiness and bad outcomes? If you think you know a better way? Isn’t it a moral obligation to institute better processes if they exist?
If i have cancer and bear in mind I’m somewhat of a hypercondriac. But if i have cancer i will have to go back to germany on the health insurance and get treated there.
I am also very worried about my personal life. I do not know who I will find to partner with and my last hope seems to be in making Food MD, the plant based cooking assistant game with a versus mode where you compete to make the most ecological meal against someone and share a meal together. You can ‘Look for Game’ or ‘Look for Date.’ It’s better than swiping and has the immediacy of a chatroulette which is very efficient for hooking up, but with the added compatibiltiy of a shared worldview for matching on. I have to make my own cure.
I don’t know what happens next. But I need SOMETHING to happen.
July 11 2026 end of day
I just made a song named Madhouse Song all about how I refuse to have anyone say I am crazy because the world is a madhouse. I’m really happy with it.
I also interviewed two lovely ladies about hurricanes and fun questions as well. Today was ok despite having a fight at the start of it. It was a fight about money.
What else is new.
But here. The need for money and for urgent climate action pushed me to not only record two interviews, grocery shop, edit, transcribe, post and inform interviewees but also write and record a new song. It’s a motivator that money thing. But it is a stand in for survival. I want to survive so I create and it will facilitate my survival via via. In any case. Here’s the song.
I think I’m getting better at this Pop thing.
Lyrics:
See the ants marching in a line
Plastic fiends and oil machines
Doing double time
See the man underpay
See the man get his way
Form a line
See the peeps as they go
All to work to and fro
Nonstop
See the work
Getting done
See the fumes in the lung
Beat drop
Aint nobody can tell me this aint a madhouse
Aint nobody can tell me
Pop up to work
That 10 hour day from the sun up til the sun down better not let your boss see you frown
Get back to bed
Dont let the voice in your head tell you you should quit, what else are you gonna pay your rent with?
Hey hey hey
As youre working all along
Hey hey hey
Keep the beat to the madhouse song
Hey hey hey
As youre working for the dime
Hey hey hey
Keep the tempo to the madhouse time
All the dreams that you have keep them down in your lap
Dont think
All the days as they pass repeat tasks til the last to the brink
Who are you dont you know if you want better work
You’ll have to go
Overseas where they pay better wage but you leave your country low
Who says the outsourced worker needs more than 1 buck or needs a raise
Who says theyre waiting for better days?
Who says the contract worker needs insurance and higher praise?
Who says we need to change our ways?
Hey hey hey
As youre working all along
Hey hey hey
Keep the beat to the madhouse song
Hey hey hey
As youre working for the dime
Hey hey hey
Keep the tempo to the madhouse time
And i know when i wake up gotta get my cake up cause i gotta get my fix now
And i know when i wake up that i gotta make up all the bills and time just ticks down
July 12, 2026
Weekly summary: I had some creative ups and downs accompanied by life ups and downs at least in the theory of how life is being led.
I used it to feed the creative process.
It is my hope that it shall fruit and the alchemy of transforming the life circumstances lead into creative gold has worked.
Oh! I forgot to mention an awesome day I had with my Fastfrwrd team mate and a friend of his who we were seeing if he could join the project. He was unable to join anything unpaid but it was a great few hours at a terrible bar and restaurant.
I haven’t found a good replacement community chill spot. The cafe would have been perfect but y’all may or may not remember that I’m not into that place anymore.
Which is why a Solarpunk future has to have mobility and displacement as a super simple and central process where you can Borrow houses, switch locations, go somewhere new for a few months to a few years, displace in order to keep things local with people YOU like and community YOU choose.
One thing I learned in Jamaica, no matter if the barkeep at the community bar did you dirty, and the shopkeeper is a gossip, you have no choice but to buy from them because they are what’s closest and you’re not gonna take a taxi to shop.
Comically, i remember seeing a man loudly insulting the barkeeper in the countryside community I used to live in, saying how horrible she was, while paying for a drink, and carrying on insulting her.
It was hilarious and sad. This community thing can feel like a prison if you can’t leave. A Solarpunk world, to me, only works if you can pick your community and change it out when you need to. A shared approach to housing.
Remember when Ariel and I spoke after the Protopian Prize interview about the ‘use’ of the thing being what decides who stays in power?
I have been thinking about that a lot.
Yes to libraries including things but maybe a rasta would say the word ‘library’ reminds of them of the word ‘lie’ and books were used to tell lies that dehumanized black and brown people.
So instead I broadened the term to more accurately be: ‘The Borrow.’ Government run, whatever governance structure you choose, a community utility where you can borrow books, multimedia, food processors, drills, 3D printers, electric vehicles, bicycles, and yes, why not, a database of houses to borrow.
The same fines apply for damage, perhaps your payment card details are on file.
I go even further in the short stories I wrote to where the Borrow is home of a publicly coded and trained A.I. or bot or C.I. (Created Intelligence), and also you can Borrow Civic Services from a database, no party in charge just civic services on file to Borrow from.
The Borrow is a Third Space, one near every town center, and it furnishes all the local needs with pooled resources.
The Borrow is a gathering spot for planning climate adjustment. What with Kingston, Jamaica being one of the first two places to experience permanent climate change or Climate Departure where natural disasters of previous times become the norm, for me, a Solarpunk transformation is not something nice to think about. It’s something I need.
In order to act local, you need to be able to change locale when it’s no longer suitable. That is central for any community driven, grassroots movement to work because community can be a source of joy or great displeasure and that’s why Capitalism seeks to replace it with friends on T.V. because they need workers to move where the jobs are and devalue their real life ties to others in preference for following the money and the work. Community is devalued and you are to maintain your cashflow, not your friendships.
I am sure Communism is just as dehumanizing in its devaluing of individual needs for the common ‘good.’
Neither is the choice. The Solarpunk future I need is one that recognizes how desperately we need each other but we all won’t just get along magically. In order to act local, we have to be able to change locale easily.
And them’s my observations from the week!